Deep Reflection

What is the meaning of life when all experiences are only surface experiences?

Sayadaw U. Rajinda

The meaning of a human life are cultivated in their life experiences. What we choose to be, our decision in action, speech and thoughts defines our authenticity. Each of the experiences is the opportunity to get to know us better than ever.

There are many of us govern by the emotion and feeling such as anger or fear, some also drunk from the lust of pleasure and guilt. Thus, our view become unclear. And our perspective become poisoned.

We must remember that the nature of our being is pure. Love is our strength. Compassion is our driver. This structure must be known for the intelligent can separated the ego and the soul.

When we are in a life situation, we can always choose to see the situation as a blessing or a curse. It is up to us, our consciousness. The consciousness that lies deep beneath flesh and blood. The Heart that lives and search for it’s way back home.

This writing is dedicated for August group of Aayaa Yoga Teacher Training Bali: Reham, Charlotte, Celina, Theresa, Kathrine, Juliana and Tara. We wish all the best journey in this life.

Dry Fasting Retreat

This type of retreat we normally offer to a students who already finished their 200 hours Yoga Teacher Training course. It is an optional extension of the program for those who wants to try fasting under guidance of an experienced teachers, to clean their Nadi so their personal practice behind the school doors will be more efficient.

As long as you followed vegetarian diet for 21 day it is easy for most of you to do dry fasting right after training.

During a day of fasting we offer advanced level yoga asana practice. The theory of meditation is given just for half an hour as long as you have got the course of this subject already. Theory of dry fasting will be shared: physiology, mental and physical possible difficulties and ways to solve it.

At first day students arrive into place and rest. In the afternoon we have opening ceremony and light dinner.
Next day we practice asanas, meditating and learning a theory. It is also recommended to read spiritual literature this day. Some books we can provide.
On third day`s morning we do gentle Shank Prakshalana (1 liter of salted water with lemon\lime). Specific breakfast will be served. Checkout before 12 (depends on villa`s schedule).

7:00 – 7:307:30 – 8:008:15 – 10:0010:30 – 11.3012:00 – 13:0013:30 – 14:3015:30 – 16:3017:00 – 18:3019:00 – 19:3020:00 – 21:00
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Fasting theory module

Healing water fasting

  1. History
    1. Jewish;
    2. Christian;
    3. Muslim;
    4. Hindu;
    5. American Indians
  2. How long is possible to fast? Magic number
  3. Nowadays
    1. Location of toxins;
    2. Types of toxins. Sugars;
    3. Diseases caused by toxins;
  4. Stages of fasting
  5. What is being treated?
    1. Inflammations;
    2. Chronic;
    3. Joints stiffness
  6. Safety
    1. Mental work. Concentration and Mindfulness;
    2. Physical difficulties. Sensations;
    3. Water quality. Dehydration;
    4. Know your limits: emergency break of fasting. Two indicators;
  7. Weight loss
  8. Processes during fasting
    1. Glycogen pillow;
    2. Ketosis;
    3. Toxemia;
    4. Tongue;
  9. Procedures during fasting. Enema
  10. What do we want to achieve?
  11. Getting out of fasting
    1. Detached toxins
    2. Removing toxins
    3. Prohibited food
    4. For how long to get out?
    5. 3 steps to rejuvenate yourself: citric – veggies – herbs
    6. Possible difficulties and solutions
  12.  New life experience: raw food

Meditation theory module

This module is designed for 10 hours course. Not all information will be given on short 3-5 days Water Healing Fasting retreats.

I. Evolution of the Mind through a Human

1. Tools of evolution

  1. Introduction;
  2. Rules and regulations. Role of the government;
  3. Making Mind busy: ceremonies and rituals;
  4. Making Mind focused: setting a meaning for material objects;
  5. Evolution of moral aspect: creating a happy society;
  6. Reducing negative charge from society: shriving;
  7. Science: new religion for a Conceptual Mind;
    1. Conceptual Mind: definition, origin, role. Units of a CM. Wikipedia – a new holy book;
    2. Points of view. Methods of understanding of a physical reality;
    3. External knowledge: parents, education, society. Maps collectors;
    4. Internal realization: insight knowledge. Intuition;
    5. Vipassana Meditation as a tool of self realization;
  8. Conditioned Mind: a theater
    1. Definition, origin, role;
    2. Birth process, conditioning by circumstances;
  9. Ego Mind
    1. Origin, function, main characteristic: recognizing in a daily life;
    2. Importance of having ego: dividing One into Many. Ego as a mirror. The truth about me from your lips. Conventional and Ultimate truth;
    3. Self conceit – main obstacle in life;
    4. Purifying the Ego;
  10. Body as a tool of evolution of the Mind
    1. Role of action: direct experience. Realization vs Understanding;
    2. Yoga asana as a tool of self realization: the way you meet difficulties in asana is a reflection of our life style;
    3. Imagining yourself as a yogi. Not listening the body. Traumas;
    4. Ahimsa. Breath as a signal for balance;

2. Breaking the rules: beyond the limits. Neo-humanism

  1. Refugees of an industrial age
    1. Seeking love and peace;
    2. Fear and anger as a foundation of fanaticism. Grasping;
    3. Importance of purification of the Mind during practicing Yoga Asana;
    4. Calm contemplation without judging and reaction;

3. Structure of the Mind

  1. Thoughts. Directed and not directed, wondering Mind;
  2. Emotions. ‘+’ and ‘–‘ charge. Superficial and basic;
    1. Eastern point of view. Emotions as a manifestation of feelings;
    2. Western point of view. Emotions routed in a body. Situative reactions;
  3.  Expectations: pre-prepared energy charge. Origin. Hiding childish acceptance of a miracle;
  4. Judgement as foundation of duality. Like-dislike;
  5. Feelings. Love as our nature. Mind is not designed to feel;
  6. Intention vs desire. World is perfect or we must change it?

II. Vipassana meditation as a tool of Conscious evolution

  1. Buddha teaching. Original story
  2. Foundation of Buddha teaching
    1. Four Noble Truth;
    2. Eightfold Noble Path;
    3. Three wholesome actions:
      1. Do not do evil: Body evil. Speech evil. Thought evil;
      2. Do good;
      3. Purify the Mind;
  3. Wrong view as a basement of bad karma. Who knows the object?
  4. Obstacles by Buddha teaching
    1. Anger/Hatred or attachment to dislike;
    2. Greed or attachment to like;
    3. Restless Mind or worry. Pramada;
    4. Sloth/torpor or lazy Mind. Styana and Alasya;
    5. Doubt. Samsaya;
    6. Ignorance. Bhrantidarsana;
  5. Obstacles by Sri Desikachar (Sri Krisnamacharya lineage). Roots of Avidya
    1. Raga;
    2. Dvesa;
    3. Abhinivesa;
    4. Asmita;
  6. Vipassana meditation – a tool to remove obstacles;
  7. Four conditions to liberation of the Mind;
  8. Faith or Isvarapranidhana as a foundation of any practice;
  9. Walking meditation technique
    1. Why walking?
    2. Contemplation of a movement itself;
    3. Objects of walking meditation;
    4. Developing concentration;
    5. Difficulties
  10. Sitting meditation technique
    1. Mastering the time
      1. Time units;
      2. Momentary concentration;
      3. Hearing consciousness as a sample of attachment to a Conceptual Mind;
      4. There is only now;
    2. 5 mental factors;
    3. Following the attention. Starting point;
    4. Difficulties: pain, numbness, itchiness. Hatred;
    5. What then? Intermediate level briefly
      1. Wholesome and unwholesome mind;
      2. Living thought and energy (vibrations). The symphony of your existence;
      3. Unpleasant, pleasant and neutral feelings;
  11. Daily activities Meditation
    1. A bond between practices;
    2. Conscious life;

All information given during the course is a point of view based on personal experience of a teacher. The only reason it is given to a students: is to help to liberate the mind in order to achieve peaceful & happy life.

Why practice fasting?

At first let us understand what is fasting. There are two main types exist: dry – total refuse of consumption and wet – drinking water during process.

Dry one is recommended only for healthy people: kidneys and liver must be clean and work properly.
This practice mostly spread by Yoga tradition. As long as Yogi are strict vegetarians, avoid Tamasic food they have perfect health. And most of them do Upavasa – one day dry fasting – twice a month: on 11 day after fool and new moon.
In these days combined gravity of sun and moon are at their maximum. Resulting in a strongest influence on water ‘behavior’ on Earth during a month: highest tides this days. We consist of water mainly. It influence us greatly as well. Think about origin of the word ‘lunatic’ 🙂
By dedicating this days to a fasting practice we are neutralizing influence of the gravity on us. This relates to a psychic benefit of fasting. There are also physical and spiritual consequences.

Physical benefits

When we are practicing dry fasting toxins begin to release after a second missed meal. Mostly in the intestine, but also through kidneys, lungs and skin.
That is why Yogi do Shank Prakshalana after fasting: drinking about a liter of highly salted water together with juice of one lemon or couple of limes. Salt prevents water from absorption in a stomach and intestine, so everything withing it is flushing out.

When we practice meditation or some other techniques (such as breath work) we may experience a vision of light which bring us to a delight state. Even can hear divine sounds. During this process pineal gland is highly active. On the day of refusal the food this gland also become very active. So we can tell that during fasting we train our physical aspect – part of brain – in order to achieve more deep meditation practice after fasting.

Spiritual benefits

One of the points of view on a practice of fasting is a total cleansing of the Mind from clouds. Under the influence of lowest 3 chakras we may have primitive desires that we misplace with our true desire. Sensual pleasures our body wants distract us from the path of our destiny. That is why we stop eating and purify our lowest chacras: we can understand what is our inspiration.
By regular practice of 1 day dry fasting Yogin will achieve state when he got a lot of energy, peaceful mind, raised creativity. And this state may last up to two weeks.

Not for nothing this practice called Upavasa: ‘Upa’ – together, ‘Vasa’ – supreme consciousness (what most people call God).
When we stop eating we blocking our lust and greed – attachment to a like, to a desirable tastes of food. In order to get rid from Avidya or Ignorence. We are transforming this low energy into high. That is why it is good to read spiritual literature, meditate and practice asanas while fasting. If we watch TV or playing computer games – it is just changing the source of pleasant sensations from tongue to eyes.

Water Healing Fasting

Well, life is messy. And most of us are not Yogis. Even vegetarians. But it doesn’t mean that we can not clean ourselves! Water fasting is possible for everyone. And this type is more gentle to a deeply toxified body of a modern human. (They say that in Europe there is a problem: bodies in a graveyards do not decompose for over 50 years because of tons of preservatives collected in tissues for a lifetime of a human. So authorities have to open new graveyards instead of normal practice of renovation. Don`t know if its true or not).

First two days on water, technically, are not fasting but unloading the body. A liver has a ‘glycogen pillow’ for two days of just normal activity life. Glycogen breaks down to glucose and we have enough energy.

Third day on water is a first real fasting day. Toxins started to be released from all organs. Water soluble are coming out mostly through kidneys and lungs. Fat soluble are being released by liver, intestine and skin.
That is why very important to remove it by taking warm shower twice a day and doing enema every 3-5 days (depends on how you feel).

It is experimentally proven that a human can do fasting during 56 days. But that is maximum. For how long should we do it?

Professor Stoleshnikov – Russian doctor, who moved to New York and confirmed his medical license – wrote a book based on Arnold Ehret and Luigi Cornaro books and his own experience. So he explains, that 40 days is a good maximum: vital organs not began to be consumed yet, but a body already pure as a child.
He mentioned 21 days period – time when normally all toxins are released and chronic disease start to be cured. This period of 21-28 days is a goal for those people who need to heal yourself from deep difficulties.
But he warns practitioners: before you become able to refuse food for 21 days, you must prepare yourself for about 200 days of overall experience Water Healing Fasting.
So no rush. You have to train your Mind, so it understand: no food – is o`k, no panic. And Body: it has deep wisdom of survival and able to heal itself from most diseases even traumas. Just give it to rest!
And what amazing sensation of the body you have after long fasting (more than 10 days)! You just feel comfortable: all nadi (energy channels) are clean. No tension, pain or whatsoever distracting…

Body and the Mind are deeply connected. And cleaning a body means purification of the Mind as well: unpleasant memories may arise. Correct work with this ‘mental material’ is a part of fasting process.
During retreat we will share information you need to start this way of purification. We can support you: show the door and explain what is behind, helping to make first steps. But you are the One who must walk it.

Water Healing Fasting Retreat

So you decided to try fasting. Let us give you a hand of knowledge and our experience to support you in this journey beyond the limits of human beliefs about food, nutrients and energy for the body. What we offer is a program that includes all important elements to make your way easier and successful. It consist of several stages going through which you will train your mind and purify a body. Whether you just want a new experience in a supportive group of people or defeat your disease (even cancer) – you are welcome to join.

   Program consist of 7 stages. Each of them includes progressive amount of information such as Water Healing Fasting theory (by professor Stoleshnikov), mind work technique: vipassana meditation theory and practice, basic yoga practice and optional water purification ceremony at a hidden ancient place of Bali.


   Is designed to help you to make first steps in Water Healing Fasting process.

   At first day students arrive, rest and participate in Opening Ceremony. Details of schedule, activities and teachers introduction will be shared. Specific food will be given to a participants: rich of fiber and vitamins in order to purify intestine and reduce toxin influence on the organs.

   Second and third days no food allowed. Only filtered water without limitations. The schedule is

7:00 – 7:307:30 – 8:008:15 – 9:4510:30 – 11.3012:00 – 13:0013:30 – 15:0015:30 – 16:3017:00 – 18:3019:00 – 19:3020:00 – 21:00
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Fourth day is a juice day. In order to tie toxins in a blood and help a body to release it citric juices diluted with water (50%) will be served without limitations. As well as pineapples.


This stage (as well as III, IV and V) is created to support people in their fasting, separate from temptations of supermarkets and restaurants and create a mini-society where participants can communicate. Another point is to make mind busy, so there will not be much time to think about food, but learn and practice.

    This is 5 days fasting event. And, basically, there is no big difference with ‘I stage’ time table. Only theoretical part will be extended: both Vipassana and fasting. We will go deeper in understanding of how Mind works, learn and practice how to avoid suffering during fasting. Once you understand the technique fasting will become for you just another normal practice in your life.


This is long fasting retreats – 21 and more days. Obviously you already know what you are doing. The only thing you might want is to escape from the city or society to have a company of like-minded people. We can help with accommodation – to find a peaceful place to stay and practice.

Also it is good to make some breathing practices during a ‘unlimited juice time’ which will help to alkalify a body and release deep emotional traumas. We can facilitate you at a Healing Breath sessions: a specific type of breath practice (based on holotropic breath technique by S. Groff) which allow to explore your inner world and purify it even deeper.

It is time to wake up…

The Act of Unsatisfaction

“Happiness is the state of satisfaction and unhappiness if the state of un-satisfaction.” Sayadaw U. Nyanaramsi

The purpose of practicing yoga is not only to maintain the physical beauty, but also to maintain the mental beauty. This can only be achieved with the understanding of spirituality.

Most people think that the fulfilment of satisfaction can be found in the “outside world”. Thus we tend to be “doing” rather than “being”. Doing is expressed by action, yet being is expressed by awareness.

While focusing on “doing things” we don’t know how it feels like to become in peace. However, only within peace we can achieve satisfaction/ happiness by understanding things that thought we cannot do. We automatically give our awareness to the outside world through our senses. In this condition, we only retrieve the information from our physical senses (eye, ears, nose, etc).

In order to understand the nature of a soul, yogis must enter the higher state that is more subtle. So yogis can connect the missing web between the information and understanding the full picture of reality.

A yoga master, TKV. Desikachar explain about avidya (the act of unsatisfaction) that derives from four states: (1) asmitha, (2) raga, (3) dvesa and (4) abhinivesa.

Asmitha is the expression of an ego. Thoughts that arise in the state understanding of “I am the greatest”, “I have to be better”, “I know that I’m right”, and so on. This is the state that we associate greatly with the “I”.

Raga is the expression of demand. We always want things we don’t have and what we have is not enough. And we want more. We want something today because it was pleasant yesterday.

Dvesa is the expression of aversion (rejection). We have difficult situation and we afraid if the difficult situation will occur. Thus, we learn to reject things that is being offered to us to prevent this difficult situation to repeat. But sometimes we apply the same act even to different situation. We reject things that we are not familiar with, even though it doesn’t have any history related to us.

Abhinivesa is the expression of fear, uncertainty and doubt. We doubt our positive life. We afraid if people judge us negatively. We don’t want to grow old. There are a lot of uncertainty feeling when ife is upset.

“Avidya is constantly active in our sub-conscious mind. We can increase avidya by feeding it and we can reduce avidya by starving it. Our action is constantly encourage or discourage the growth of avidya in our mind.” TKV. Desikachar

Technique of Efficient Forgiveness

In order to forgive yourself and others, you must un-tie the knot (of relation) with memories that relate to the situation when you make that dosa (anger, hatred).

The only way to un-tie the knot with memory is by understanding feelings, thoughts and action that relate to the memory and observe it. Release (understanding) can only happen when we observe the situation yet at the same time, not being involved or given reaction to the content (of situation).

In this way we may be able to understand that the situation has happened and it was wrong. We decide that: “it was wrong things”, yet the truth is: it was happened. And we cannot change what has happened in the past. With this understanding, we may be able to change the future.

Then we may promise to ourselves that we will remember this lesson, and not to repeat it. Keeping this sacred promise and thus we may have the path of forgiveness to ourselves. We must remember that we cannot control everything.

A soul starts to wonder “who am I?” only with the activation of Purusa (the essence of life itself). Activation of Purusa happen in the state of mind. So that a rough form (of a human body) can start to question about themselves. With this realization, a soul became more attracted to the spiritual knowledge.

The intellect is defeated by spiritual mind, and thus the mental practice is started.  With the practice of sadhana (mindfulness), the evolution of the mind is upgraded. And the desire to become one with the Nukleus become faster until the unit (human intellect) become one.

Understanding who you really are is the true genuine knowledge. Serve to all with the good deed toward the pure consciousness is the true act and the promise to continue perform bhakti (devotion to the greater essence of beauty) is the true nature of the soul.

The Base of Our Survival

When we seek for good life, often we bump into the trap of suffering. Or at least, a situation we think that “we are suffering”. The truth is, we don’t really know what is suffering. We just copy some other people who call it “suffering” and then we render into circle of meaningless thoughts, think that it is very important.

The truth of nature is change. Change is the only absolute truth. The human mind very fast. And thus the Ego think that “everything is very slow” or think that “things never really change”. The Ego rarely see the change of reality. Most of our Ego thinks that we are experiencing the same things every single day. With the sun comes up, we are awake and then we must perform our duty for work or taking care of the house, and at the end of the day we expect to feel tired so we must sleep and then awake the next day with the same feeling. Most of the time we forget to see details just because we think we know everything.

Our mind have the capacity to understand the depth of each reality, and see deeper (not just the surface experience). And when we finally go deep into our own reality, we see such terrible things, or we see such wonderful things. And when we are not ready for this, we might get caught up and attach to this reality, and truth will be changed based on this point of view. But, truth itself always change. And it’s okay.

Some of us think that it’s not okay to change, just because the current concept is the concept that we know of for the whole lifetime. Thus, lead to an extreme sabotage perspective of control and manipulation.

When we speak about the base of our survival, we are seeking for the true reality of survival. And yet, we will not be able to know the truth when we are too concern of our own survival itself. It is no different with the experience of seeking a diamond under the ocean, but having problem believing that we will find the diamond. Our base of survival is our own spiritual experience, this is no different with the experience of our own love.

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July “Laugh till You Cry”

Most of the time, we think we know everything. Most of the time, we think we are the only person in the world that is suffering from pain and desperation. Most of the time, we forget that there are also others like us. That is suffering, and that is also seeking for the truth of love and hope to find happiness.

Human mind is the greatest tool we can have to help us survive in this life, yet can also be the strongest tool we can have to destroy our life and make it more miserable. This is all within our own choices. There is always a way out in every situation. As we are blessed with this power and protection.

Sometimes we forget that to be born as a human, we have the opportunity to experience many different reality. And thus, the stage of being a human is nothing less than an opportunity to learn. There is no need to question of learning. Learning is our own nature. And only by learning we may be able to elevate the experience in this life. Living as a human being.

Just to be a human being (itself) has its own struggle. But, there always way to indulge the human mind with many different perspective and fantasy. The realization of the nature of pain is no different with the nature of pleasure. Only as being a human, we have the opportunity to understand this life.

This writing is dedicated for July 2019 Aayaa Bali Yoga Teachers: Katryn, Bella, Chalie, Liz, Irena, Daria, Darko, Petra, Marie, Shakti, Minhee and Pearl.